Thought this might be perfect for a Sunday evening post…
As photographer we all hear those stories of our ‘ideal clients’ and our joy for working with them. But not many people talk about the potential clients who refuse to work with you because of some strange reason. I mean I have had my share of strange reasons of not wanting me to be someone’s photographer. Everything like you are a female, you’re out of my budget, I don’t like your style, and so on down the line. All of which I can say I understand. But when you book a client… put lots of time messaging and emailing them… Setting up all the details… Finalizing things… Then you get that email saying, “Sorry after reading your blog I see I don’t want to work with you. I will be canceling my session with you.”
THAT IS THE MOMENT THE HEARTBREAK SETS IN… YOU QUESTION WHAT YOU DID, DIDN’T DO, SOMETHING YOU SAID, MAYBE THEY CAN’T AFFORD YOU, ARE THEY OKAY, WHAT HAPPENED ??? All these things and more come in to play in your mind. So you reply back to them and ask what happened, and is there anything you can do to fix or help them ???
And all you get back is… “I read your blog. I see you are a hardcore Christian. I do not believe in a god. So I do not want to work with you.”
And in that moment again, my heart sinks.
I am crushed.
I have lost a client because of my faith.
It wasn’t my work, style, price, or anything to do with my photography.
BUT IT WAS ME! IT WAS MY FAITH IN MY LORD. IT WAS BECAUSE I WAS A CHRISTIAN.
I knew then there was nothing I could do to get back that client. And most of the time I would beat myself up over something so little. But this wasn’t little to me. It felt like an attack on me. It felt as though I was a bad person because I view something different. Because I believed in a loving Lord. That I put my faith in our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.
THEN IT HIT ME LIKE A TON OF BRICKS! It had nothing to do with me. I was fine. I did nothing wrong. But instead it was my potential client. It was them.
In that moment I felt sad for them, and my heart broke more. All I could do was pray. As strange as this sounds I found myself being very thankful for this person turning me away because of ‘my faith’… I knew this was God showing me that my faith has to be strong and to be PROUD of my love for him. My Lord would NEVER turn from me. He would never be ashamed to call me his child. He would never tell me I wasn’t good enough for loving him. My Lord would embrace me. He would shield me. He would LOVE me.
So even though I have lost a client do to my open heart and willingness to share my past, my love, my faith, and my savior Jesus Christ… I have then instead gained so much more. I have gained more STRENGTH and COURAGE to know that my Lord is always for me. And in the end… This wasn’t my ‘ideal client’ but instead someone I must show compassion and love to… Just as our Lord does for us.
Now you are probably wondering if I replied back to this person… And I did. I made sure to thank them. I made sure to encourage them to find the perfect photographer that fits their style, likes, and loves. And I reminded them that I was not upset or mad in any way. But I thanked them for their openness with me. And I prayed they could find someone to help capture the images and style they were looking for.
I never heard anything back. And I never expected to. But at that time my heart was at peace.
I knew my Lord would find the right clients at the perfect time for me. After all my ‘ideal clients’ are out there. And I have faith in my Lord.
***I WANT TO ENCOURAGE ANYONE WHO IS READING THIS***
If you find yourself in a place or around those who do not understand your faith, respect your love for your Lord. DON’T let that get to you. But instead ask the Lord to help this moment strengthen you. Ask God what he wants from you in this moment. Maybe they have never heard from someone (Christian) with a love like yours. Maybe by showing compassion and love you can do something our Lord is asking of you. Maybe the Lord is using you to help ignite a spark in that person’s heart. So that they may burn for Gods love as we do. Have faith and use what God has brought to you as a strength to draw closer to our lord. Don’t shy away. But be proud and stand tall in Gods love.
***SIDE NOTE FOR MY READERS***
Yes this is my photography blog. But I have chosen to use this place as a way to share my work, my thoughts, my heart, and my love for our Lord. I hope that you (the reader and or potential clients) do not shy away. But continue to venture back and join in my photography and personal journeys in life. I hope to one day meet the many faces who choose to share in my beliefs, love, and style of photography… And all I have to show of my life.
AND THANK YOU TO THOSE WHO HAVE ENCOURAGED ME TO STAY OPEN IN MY BLOG… THOSE WHO HAVE HELPED ME LEARN WHERE AND WHAT I WANT MY PHOTOGRAPHY BLOG TO SHOW AND BE. ❤
I am forever grateful for you all. ❤